Happy 2 Year Anniversary to us!!!!!!!
In a blink, here we are….living together in our little
house: kissing each other goodbye in the mornings as we go our separate ways
for work, planning our grocery shopping for the week, washing dishes, scrubbing
the bathroom sink, watching TV in our big bed, cuddling during a movie, talking
in the dark and making each other laugh before bed.
It hasn’t been perfect. Jose was in a minor car crash and I
came down with a strange illness in which I broke out in a rash and had a terrible
cough. Jose’s beloved ’88 Honda Civic is out of commission and will most likely
be sold to his brother Cas after it’s been deemed road-worthy. Now Jose drives
a red ’99 Accord and though he misses his old girl, the power windows and A/C in
the new car are much appreciated, especially by me. J My weird sickness weighed
heavily on me and Jose was a total sweetheart the whole time through. He doted
on me, made sure I was comfortable and offered comfort when I thought I was
losing my mind over the itching. A couple of rounds of medication later and I’m
feeling 100% thank goodness
My heart just keeps expanding with all the happiness I’m
feeling each and every day. The love I have for Jose grows exponentially, too.
There are times when I look over at him, asleep in our bed and I have to poke
his face to make sure he’s real. Did I dream you? Are you really mine? What did
I do to deserve you, someone so loving, caring, wonderful and nice? And then I
have to shake my head and smile. These are just silly questions that have no
answer. You just have to accept what this lives gives you.
Just a couple days ago, we were fooling around in bed and
Jose asks me, “Why do you love me?” and I was a little stunned. I didn’t have a
quick answer. I made a joke and said it’s because I thought he was the coolest,
which isn’t wrong. Cool could mean a lot of things. Cool is like being perfect,
without having to be perfect. Does that make sense? I countered his question
and asked why does he love me?
“I don’t know. Because even when things are bad, they’re not
so bad anymore because I have you” he says with a shrug.
And maybe that’s it…maybe that’s what we’re all aiming for….we
just want a partner to navigate this life with, someone that will keep us safe
and warm…or makes us laugh when a Prius slams into us at a busy intersection on
the way home from school…or make you forget how scary seeing the doctor is when
you know the diagnosis is going to suck.
These last 2 years have been fantastic, a life full of love
with the coolest guy I know. The coolest co-pilot I could ever ask for.
As long as we're together, there's no place I'd rather be...
