So I placed my heart under lock and key
To take some time, and take care of me
But I turn around and you're standing here...
Oh man....wow...
Jose continually keeps knocking it out of the park. Home-run after home-run, with every text message, every phone call, every smile on his cute, chubby face...I look at him and I don't know whether I want to kiss him or slug him for not coming sooner. So this is happiness? And dammit, I deserve it. I won't back away from it. I will bring the A-game now. I still step it up. I have GOT to be a better person, because this kid is fantastic. We could be amazing together.
Tuesday night was *supposed* to be our last date before I leave for New York City tomorrow, but we ended up caving and making a coffee date for tonight.
Tuesday went very well. Jose abruptly got a call from his pal Joey that he'd be in town, so we had a third wheel on the "farewell" date. Burgers at Umami in Los Feliz, near my work. Joey was nice, a little rough around the edges, but not bad. He spent the better part of the night talking about his job at Shakey's and making fun of Jose, so we had some laughs. It was kinda funny seeing Jose squirm a little. At the end of the night, Jose and I kissed goodbye in my car, which prompted Joey to ask if he could be the godfather of our future children. I snorted out a laugh, feeling the red rushing to my face, and said sure...not knowing what else to say! Fun night.
I could sit here and rehash the hundreds of text messages he and I have exchanged over the last few weeks, but the ones from the past 3 days have said it all...in our own words...because I can't do him justice...Jose is in the white and I'm the green, obviously...
I'm mush around him, and I don't fucking care...
The airport pick up...wow...I don't know about you, but in my dating history, the airport pick up is a big deal..this is boyfriend and girlfriend type stuff...he seems totally up for it, though..
He's equally mushy. "To Have and To Hold" is a popular Depeche Mode song that our favorite band Deftones famously covered...I got the reference and I liked it :)
Jose's mom is the mother of 6 kids. He's the oldest, along with a younger sister and two sets of boy/girl twins. His parents are divorced and he was explaining to me the relationship he currently has with his father.
I am in awe of his mother and the love Jose has for her...he's told her loads about me and shown her my picture. She likes me and thinks I'm pretty...hopefully when I meet this special lady, I'll know the right thing to say...she's raised a good son :)
HE DIDN'T BALK! HE DIDN'T BALK! HE'S AGREED TO MEET MY ORNERY BUT SOMETIMES VERY SWEET SALVADORIAN SINGLE MOM!! Whoa, dude...whoa...first the airport pick up, now this?! Let's keep going! I like it!
This kid has brought his A game to the max. He doesn't back down and where others might have cowardly changed their mind, he soldiers ahead...*golf clap*
So...he and I do this thing where we race to see who can shower the fastest. He's smoked me every single time. I don't know why we started doing it, but it's now become a nightly occurrence. I am unabashedly silly with him
And finally, the goodnights. Jose calls me a few pet names, but "chocolate chip" is by far my favorite. I think it's because of all the beauty marks I have on my face? Whatever the reason, it keeps me smiling.
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I massively regret making this trip to New York City. The weather is going to suck because of Hurricane Sandy. My period is looming and could strike at any minute. Terry and Jay are a huge temptation now, whereas before they were part of the reason I was going. I don't know what I'm going to do. I just want to wall myself up in my Staten Island hotel room and sleep until the Deftones concert in Manhattan. (sigh)
All I want is Jose.
When he meets my mom tonight, I hope it goes well. She can be a bit difficult and in her eyes, no guy is good enough for her baby daughter. I haven't brought a guy around to meet her in years, mostly because there just hasn't been anyone worth meeting. But Jose is different. He's incredibly worth meeting. He's worth waiting for. He's worth keeping.
Is it Halloween night yet?
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