My 2014 started off with a couple of bangs.
Jose's New Years resolution from 2012 came to an end and he's no longer a vegetarian. It wasn't really much of a resolution as it was a bet among friends that he couldn't do it for 3 months. Well, 3 months turned into 2 years and on New Year's, we had T-bone steaks to celebrate his return to carnivore life. DELICIOUS! He cleaned his plate and mine :)
He's gotten a second job working part time at his friend Rocky's auto mechanic shop. He hopes to start phasing the Pep Boys stuff out and make the shop job his main gig. Right now he's just doing basic tune up stuff and I'm actually taking my car into his shop on Saturday for a break job. Second job means a little bit of money on the side, which is nice. He told me he's been saving up for our place. I asked if his family will be okay with him moving out this year, to which he told me that he doesn't think we'll be moving out anytime soon.
Well, that felt like a punch in the gut.
Neither one of us is very aggressive or confrontational, so our "fights" are always painfully understated. I stayed quiet and kinda slumped in my seat. I think he could feel the disappointment radiating from the passenger seat of the car. We we were happy and civil for the rest of the night but by the time he dropped me off at my house, I wasn't in the happiest mood. Especially when I tried to kiss him goodnight and he tells me he doesn't like it when I put my hand on the back of his head. He could have told me he hates water colors or the sound of baby kittens purring, and my reaction would have been the same. (SNAP) I immaturely stormed out of his car and went to bed. Hooray. We spent the first 12 hours of the new year mad at each other. By the afternoon, we hashed it out. He told me he was bothered by my silence over not being able to move out soon. I told him he was right and there was no point arguing over it. We both have to be ready. I apologized for being rude and walking out on him. All was well...
And then tonight, seemingly out of nowhere he asks:
A lot of friends around us are having babies and shacking up together (including his own sister!), so I think he feels the pressure to try and keep up or somehow fulfill a need I have. Lord knows, I do want those things but not in that order. I reiterate that this is the hand we've been dealt with and we need to do things on our own timeline. Nothing bad has happened and we gotta keep going in our own way, no on else's. We closed the subject and said goodnight.
I can tell he wants to do right by me and that he thinks carefully about our future life together. No matter what, I know this is going to be a great year for us. Even better than the last :)
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