"We were never meant to be, baby, we just happened..."

I thought I was done with him.....

Then he goes and post this on MySpace....

Aug 28, 2009 9:56 AM

Subject: I Have A Feeling that tonights gonna be a good night

Hey all,

Just a reminder that tonight is my b-day party it starts at 9 i hope to see you all there and just remember the earlier you get there the better chance you have of seeing me sober.

The party starts at nine and will be held at the Dawghouse which is located on 15351 Gale ave Industry CA, 91745. hope you all can make it

I was not given an invitation...and when I asked him what he was doing on his birthday a few weeks ago (being a sick stalker, I already knew about this party), he lied and said he didn't know...that his friends "might" do something that would inevitably fall through...

FUCK YOU.

I don't want to be with a guy who quotes lame Black Eyed Peas songs...I don't even fit in his world...I could only imagine how awkward and out of place I'd be at some party, at a place called "Dawghouse"...

them: Hey, how do you know the birthday boy?
me: Oh well...we were friends in high school...then I blew him like half a dozen times over the course of 3 years.

The night of the party, I helped Dan pack his stuff. We moved out of our parents house and tonight we spend our first night together in the new apartment. And you know what, I'm happy. I feel safe. I feel supported. I feel like I matter again...

It stings, but you're gone Edgar....it's done, it's over...I guess this is the purge....all the vomit, ill-feelings, bile, putrid waste I had harboring in my heart...it can all come out.

I welcome catharsis.