Where's your gavel? Your jury? What's my offense this time?

Life continues to get worse before it gets better....I'm starting to think that this whole "darkest before dawn" shit is just for losers who have good lives to begin with....

An ill-timed trip to Vegas with Dan this past weekend...we had it planned since May but the move and the bills got the best of me...and well now I have a negative balance on my checking account.

Yum.

The trip was fun, I guess...Dan and I had some good times, but mostly it all soured at the end and we basically took our bickering out on a road trip...just the same bullshit. I don't know why I thought moving out with him was a good idea, when the fights and squabbles were so glaringly obvious to both of us.

I loathe him sometimes. Too much to explain.

Broke and angry, I find out that Anthony is seeing a new girl:

[3:50:56 PM] Anthony: I have some news for ya
[3:50:59 PM] Anthony: hahaha
[3:51:00 PM] me: oh yeah?
[3:51:10 PM] me: what?
[3:51:10 PM] Anthony: I met someone finally
[3:51:21 PM] me: happy day!!
[3:51:32 PM] Anthony: yeah, I was introduced
[3:51:40 PM] Anthony: she's great, almost too good to be true

Knife through my motherfucking heart. Yeah, I do deserve that. It's my mantra now....yeah, I had it coming.

My jealousy creeps into my heart...he shows me her picture:



Oh, Anthony is not done yet:

[3:54:36 PM] Anthony: we were distant at first but as the night went out started making out (this is at a party btw) and went to the restroom for privacy
[3:54:49 PM] Anthony: and came this (-) close to sex
[3:54:53 PM] Anthony: but I was like "we should wait"
[3:55:00 PM] Anthony: so, I guess I really like her
[3:55:01 PM] Anthony: haha

He gushes over her for most of the conversation:

[4:00:00 PM] Anthony: haha
[4:00:18 PM] Anthony: she doesn't like that I'm a Marine
[4:00:23 PM] Anthony: and I was like "I hate it too!!!"
[4:00:32 PM] Anthony: she laughed
[4:00:35 PM] Anthony: x2 BONUS

*sigh*

Then I see a picture of my ex Paul on Facebook and I decide it's time to evaluate where I went wrong:



Yeah, I used to fuck this guy on the regular...he looks like a handsome geek model, right? I think he's gorgeous....I miss his voice...I miss...so much about him.

I miss my old life. Dates, being broke but being happy...kissing a hot white guy on cold Berkeley nights...never worrying about money.

Now I'm unhappy and broke, living with the biggest dick in all of Reseda. I hate my life and who I've become.