Good times for a change...

Things between Chris and I have been going swimmingly.

Like really, no sarcasm. So good. We've got two dates under our belts plus a few phone calls and countless text messages.

I wish I had the time and energy to paste all the conversations we've been having, but I guess I can summarize: he confesses that he likes me a lot and is ready to trust again. He feels like I'm just the right person he wants to trust. He also tells me that this is a side of himself he hasn't shown in a while and he's grateful to me for helping him get there. The kicker, the part that made my heart swell, was when he revealed that he felt that what was happening between us had the potential to be pretty great. I was floored. I hadn't heard this talk from a guy in YEARS. Like...maybe in my courtship years with Dan nearly a dozen years ago. Shit just got real. And I am so glad. Incredibly, unequivocally elated.

These last few nights have been amazing. I feel like I'm moving through a happy dream. Chris continually surprises me. Not once has he been weird or slipped into asshole-mood, like all the others. On the contrary, he's been straight-forward, consistent and honest. He's so sweet, so kind but isn't a push-over. We've already made plans to drive down together to San Diego and see my friend Caroline in 3 weeks. Just knowing that the guy you like is nuts about you and is putting in the equal amount of effort to be with you is just so fucking wonderful. I've been grinning everyday.

He's mature and thoughtful. Most guys would have already pawed at my breasts and begged me for a blowjob. Not Chris. He's expressed an immense desire to be with me intimately but hasn't pressured me or pushed me to have sex. We don't want to rush on the intimacy and have decided to wait. We finally broke down on Friday night and the make-out session was incredibly intense, but we have not moved past second base. Nearly wandered into third base but we stopped ourselves.

Last night's phone conversation was great and we learned more stuff about each other. I also received a bit of a revelation from him. He had made references to it earlier but then finally revealed that he most likely will be moving to Tennessee once he graduates from school in October. There's a great opportunity for him to placed at a hospital in Nashville and in the past he's given up on his dreams to stay here in California. This is a goal and an ambition of his, so he's stopping at nothing to achieve it. I knew this was coming, as he had asked me at dinner on Friday if I'd ever consider moving away, and I answered truthfully: if I see a good reason to, I will. So discussing the subject last night, we started in on what is taking shape between us. He's considering my feelings in all of this and wanted me to know where he's headed, so I could make a decision on whether I'd want to continue. I told him I definitely want to continue, I want to give us a fighting chance and see where this can blossom into. Chris sounded relieved and agreed with me. We both agree that we deserve a chance to be happy again, with each other of course. I don't want to predict what's going to occur or develop between us, but it feels like it's going to be great.

The future is a little uncertain and that's fine. Tomorrow isn't a guarantee, all we got is today.

Chris is great and I'm starting to feel like this is the start of something amazing. It's a little scary and a little exciting. I seriously love my life right now. I like where I'm headed. I've picked up and brushed the dirt off my broken heart. Chris is slowly helping me mend. I'm ready to go :)