Ups & Downs

My life with Dan these last couple of weeks: peaks and troughs...

He threatened to move out but I convinced him to stay...not because I wanted him to stay, but because it would just be a mess if he left in the middle of June before our lease was up...I didn't need passive aggressive behavior from him and awkward encounters with family members and friends who might help us move...August 31st is our last day...I'm sure we'll both be gone before then...

We found a loophole in our rental agreement and lease...the new landlord is trying to charge us an extra 3 dollars in rent that we did not agree to when we signed the lease...if they come after us for the $3 we both agreed not to sign a new lease or any changes to it and move out. So far, I haven't heard anything from the rental office...I kinda want to confront the new landlord and convince him to let us get out of the lease early because of the violation...we paid our rent purposely in the old amount...they're not getting our 3 dollars!

I booked a hotel in Vegas for the weekend Julio would be there...I'm going with my friend Sandra and my niece Valerie...it should be fun! I hope he makes it out there...it's like guaranteed sex for him.

Also booked a flight to Oakland/Berkeley and made arrangements to stay with my old boyfriend Paul...again, guaranteed sex...oral at the very least.

Haven't heard a word from Edgar...I've been numbing the void with sappy love songs...in particular this one, from Paramore (sigh):

The Only Exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing