I've been careless with my delicate man....

I.Have.Got.To.Get.Rid.Of.Jay.

Not kidding, the kid doesn't even live in this state and I feel smothered.

We call each other every day, he out of excitement and me out of politeness.

He text me almost every day, always with some annoying pet name. UGHHH.

We've asked each other personal things to get to know each other and the more I know about him, the less I like. I should have continued with my gut and not given him a chance again...but oy vey, I didn't think he'd end up being so annoying.

He's so nuts over me and I'm just very meh about the whole thing. I'm not very attracted to him and I really don't care for his personality a whole lot...maybe to be friends with but not to start a budding romance. I need to squash this thing pronto.

OH AND DID I MENTION HE DOESN'T HAVE A JOB AND DIDN'T FINISH COLLEGE?!?

Fuck. No.

If I wanted a loser, I'd stick to the ones here.

Yeah, yeah I'm harsh....but I need to move forward in life, not go backwards. Don't I deserve to reach up?

Also....the more I talk to Jay, the more I realize I still truly am in love with Dan. We're supposed to go out tomorrow with some of our friends. I really hope he doesn't cancel on me....I need to ask him where we stand. I tried asking last Saturday but he dodged me like a bullet. He needs to stop being so vague.

I hate being a woman sometimes. We always go for the assholes.