Don't let it go away, this feeling has got to stay

I haven't much to report and it is slowly draining my sanity...

There was no surprise when Chris and I abruptly stopped texting as much last week. He had told me he was going to be extremely busy with his cousin visiting from Chicago. So busy, in fact, we wouldn't have a chance to go out on Friday. I haven't seen him in almost 10 days and it makes me sad. We used to text regularly throughout the day and talk on the phone. Now I'm lucky if we get in one or two sentences a day. We haven't talked on the phone at all and I think it's a little funny that I kinda forget what his voice sounds like.

But I soldier on. I know this is only temporary. As I mentioned earlier, Chris checks in with me at least once a day and it doesn't sound like he's lost interest, he's just a little preoccupied at the moment. He's still very sweet and cordial, plus it sounds like he does really miss me. I pray that this trend of separation doesn't continue. It's always a little scary to put this much distance between a blossoming relationship.We're still at that fun, infant stage where you just want to spend every waking moment with each other. I feel like I don't need a break from him yet! In fact, I crave him now more than ever as we are stuck in this forced separation.There's still so much about him I want to know.

Also, I think being apart is weighing heavily on our hormones. We've been randomly dirty talking and sexting. Chris was incredibly straightforward on Saturday night/early Sunday morning....

I literally laughed out loud when I got that message, mostly because it was just so abrupt and had almost nothing to do with what I had said previously. The change of tone was just too funny. He's blunt, yes....gotta appreciate his honesty! :D

We've talked briefly about when we're finally going to "do it." The big "it." He said hopefully before I leave for San Diego, but definitely before I leave for New York. Needless to say, I am incredibly anxious. I seriously picked the wrong time to start reading 50 Shades of Grey if I knew I wasn't going to see Chris for a while. My vibrator and I have become quite chummy lately (oh and don't make that face, dear reader...this whole blog is one giant TMI...you knew that already)

I miss you like crazy, Chris!!!